Friday, October 9, 2009

Thoughts...

I'm holding my book right in front of me trying to study but my mind refuses to focus on what's in the book...so I decided to blog instead.

Final exam was over & result's gonna be out in 10 days' time. Our lecturers went through the exam questions during this week's revision classes and I kinda have some idea of where I did wrong. But I ain't expecting much coz after all, our exam are all essay and it can be very subjective. What matters most is that I've put in my effort and tried my best...so I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best.

Throughout the last 4 months...I've had some thoughts about study life back here. Comparing a year ago and now...a lot of things seemed to have changed...or perhaps it's just that the way I look at things have changed.

Sometimes I think to myself...what would have happened or where will I be now if I hadn't gone to the States and deferred my studies for a year. Maybe I could have graduated, completed ACCA, went over to UK, start looking for job. Well...wasn't that the original plan? Don't get me wrong...I have no regrets at all with my decision of going over to the States...it was an opportunity of a lifetime for free...who would resist that?

I've indeed gained a lot from my experience in US...but at the same time...I've also left some things behind back here. I'm a very typical Leo and I enjoy achieving different things in life. 2 years ago, I was blessed to start off my Advanced Diploma really well. I managed to stand out a lil' more in our course of 420 students because I was given the opportunity to hold 2 positions and I was lucky that my results were a lil' above average. Even though it was challenging to juggle between studies and other responsibilities at times, I really treasured those learning experiences. I always remind myself that there's something to learn in everything that I do...no matter how shitty the job is...haha! :p

I believe that everyone will perform better when their efforts are being recognized. Same for me, being able to stand out had definitely boosted my confidence to keep striving higher. I really think that all these have helped me a lot and I'm thankful to all the people who have trusted me and gave me the confidence to do better.

Leaving the course last year meant that I had to leave all the things that I've achieved in the course behind and start all over again this year. Sometimes, it seems to be a lil' wasted but on the bright side, being free from all the extra responsibilities gave me more time to focus on my studies. It's also good to come back as 'nobody' and stand away from the limelight...it helped me to keep both feet on the ground. Besides, there are a lot more smart students in the course this year...being ordinary allowed me to step back, learn from 'em and keep trying harder.

Lately, I've been asking myself why did I choose to do Advanced Diploma in Tar college instead of getting a degree from a local uni...life would have been easier and less stressful. Most employers look for degree or professional degree holders when it comes to hiring. Even though our advanced diploma is equivalent or even tougher than accounting degree (bcoz itz exactly the same as ACCA), many big companies doesn't see it. And the Asian culture emphasizes a lot on CGPAs and qualification...how can we prove ourselves if we can't even get an interview? Plus...the school is pushing the par so high for our exam results in order to be comparable to ACCA standard...that means itz even harder to get good CGPA...can u believe that nobody out of 350 students from our course managed to get Distinction this year? It's tough to get good cgpa even for the best students who had put in so much effort. The advanced diploma qualification is already 'not-so-recognized'...plus a 'not-so-impressive' CGPA...what's the point of working our ass off when people don't even see it?! Well...life's unfair...what to do?

10 comments:

shuling said...

CV jus a sheet of paper that get you to the interview, afterall, it depends on how good fit you are in the company. People skills are wayyyyy more important. Those negative thoughts came because of the stress that you are dealing with. Chill gal, looking back at your life, a lot of good things happend and i belive there are more to come. Good luck!

Khai Shing said...

Yea...I know that there r many other things matter more when it comes to getting a job. But the first hurdle is still to get an interview...hehe!! Perhaps u're right...but why r we so stressed out..haha!! :p

HooiYee said...

Well... thinking too much might end up differently... well i'm the example :D

KhaiShing said...

Hmm...deeeeep...what you meant by that?? U mean what you're gonna do is very much different from what you planned?

HooiYee said...

yea... sort of... well... thinking is good too... it allows ur imagination goes wild (that's for free :D).... but u never what's gonna end up then.. coz sometimes people would surprise themselve with their instant decision making skill :P

Hong CN said...

Well, if you had chosen the path to head on, forget about looking back. Just go for it without regret and take whatever rewards that may shower you. Overcome whatever obstacle that may come. Take good care.

KhaiShing said...

Thanks!! juz a lil' emo earlier on coz of stress I guess. But I'm definitely happy with where I am & who I am today. =)

L said...

why so stress?take it easy la girl, u can do it

~Live Life~ said...

Life in local uni is also tough...especially after having one year holiday!?!?!?!?!

Now i emo d...

KhaiShing said...

People emo you also emo...hahaha!!:p Uni life is tough...but at least itz a degree that ppl can SEE.

Ours...nobody can see...and the 'bet' for ACCA is 200 over POUNDS ler...of course more pressure la!!